8/13/2007 11:37:00 PM
Here to blog again.
I'm going to blog some of my feelings here. Nowadays i'm a little emo. Maybe because of some reasons. Things are starting to change. Haiz!!! Why must things turn out this way? I just want care and concern but i feel that i lack. I felt like being pushed to one side. I just feel that the initiative is not there and everytime i have to start it first. If i don't start a conversation, i don't see any conversation will be starting at all. It sounds like if i didn't even try contacting her, it seems like we'll not be contacting each other forever. Why must it always be me the one who start it first? Sometimes things are not what you want to turn out to be. Why must heaven always play tricks on me? I really hate it. I hate to be being played tricks on. Maybe i'm just thinking too much and i hope i am. This is because i really hate things to turn out this way. I hope that things won't continue this way and it will turn back like what had happened in the past. Sorry for posting such things in my blog but i really feel like letting all my unhappiness and feelings out.
Anyway exams are round the corner and its about 2 weeks time. I haven't start my revision yet. I guess i have to start my revision soon as i have already flung for my common test. When i'm supposed to study, i did not. I'm just using the laptop and sleeping at home instead of studying. I really don't know what i am doing. What is wrong with with me? I just think i really can't study at home at all and if i want to study, i need to study outside. I really got to buck up and not let things continue this way.
I'll end my post here. I apologise to all for this unhappy post.