~jUsTiCe tO bE sErVe iN tHiS wOrLd~

Sunday, December 09, 2007

12/09/2007 01:10:00 AM

Alright!!! I'm here to update again. This may be my last post in this blog. I'm not really sure whether i will update again.

Anyway i guess i should stop waiting for her anymore. Everytime when i tried to ask her out, she always give me disappointment. Although she's a good girl, she don't even know what is love all about and i don't feel her giving me any chance at all. Even though it is hard to let go as i still have feelings for her and love her a lot, i will still try my best. I guess that's the best thing for both of us and for now, i decided just to be good friends with her. She kept breaking my heart again and again. Actually i don't mind to continue waiting for her till our poly life is over but she don't seem to be giving me any sign of letting me wait and chances in the future. That is what i'm very upset about her. I have fell in love with quite a few girls already since sec 3 but i failed to succeed all. Maybe i'm fated not to have a girlfriend at all or this may be a retribution for me that in my past life, i'm a play boy and abused my past life wife. All this while the time i spent together with her, i'm very happy especially the first month when i get to know her and on her birthday celebration together with me. We hang out together very often. We went shopping together, chatting on phone for hours, smsing each other long messages, treating each other dinner, dining with each other, making each other happy, sending her home and having lots of sweet times together with her. On her birthday, i've done so much for her like spending time making stars for her, buying her presents, treating her swensens and even gave her a birthday cake. I've spent $100+ on her birthday but i guess all this has gone to waste. My effort have all gone to waste. I felt very disappointed with it.

Anyway, close friends around me have asked me to give up long ago as it is not worth it since things are getting worst. However, i refused to listen to their advice. They also said that there are also many other girls around and one day i will eventually succeed. Now i finally understand why they asked me to give up. It will be better for both of us if i give up and sometimes things are not what it is meant to be. Thanks to my close friends(james, eric and kwangwei) for your advice.

To catherine, you are the person whom i'm referring to at the top of my post. Thanks for spending all the memorable time with me and appear in my life. You are the first girl whom i've done a lot of memorable things with. All those time i spent together with you, it only give me happiness and all those times will forever be in my memories. I will not forget you. I still remember you gave me a manchester united postcard and thanks a lot for it. I really love it a lot. No matter what happens in future, i wish you all the best. I still hope that we'll be able to meet up again one day and also still hope that you will treat me as a good friend. Remember in the past i always say my favourite player is cristiano ronaldo and the short form is CR? And CR stands for Catherine Rocks. So catherine rocks the galaxy and you still do. In my heart, you rocks the galaxy forever even after if my love for you faded in future.

Alright then, i shall end my last post in this blog here. This blog will be dead from now on. Whether i will bring it back to life again, i shall see. Cya guys and girls. Thanks to all those who have been reading and tagging my blog. Bye Bye!!!

~~~signing off: jUsTiCe~~~